That Was Crazy

I had done well on my homework and exams so far. The thought of learning about the engine, worried me. It just has too many parts, too many functions. The instruction though in-depth was introductory. God help... me there is another class even more in-depth and where we will have to break down an engine put it back together and pray it starts. Oh Great. Anyway, before that chapter came up, I had already told myself this will be my worse topic, my worse homework and test score.

So, I had been earning B's on exams and A's or B's on most homework assignments and labs were up and down. At one point, all hell was breaking loose and I had a very bad week. I took an exam and earned a D. I was so upset. I was annoyed. I was hard on myself for not doing well. I vowed that I would not let anything interfere in my studies again. Then I remembered. The next subject was the engine. I got an instant headache. I prayed for at least a C. I was so worried about it.

Oddly enough, the instruction on the engine ended up being one of my favorites. That is crazy to me. I was fascinated with it and wanted to learn more. I still almost worried myself to death about the upcoming exam, though. I had not gotten over not doing well on the last test. Well, after almost talking myself out of not going to class and being unnecessarily hard on myself and negative...I took the exam and was successful. It was the first exam that I earned a 100%. I was so proud of myself. I texted my son (who could care less) after I learned of my score. I just felt like a weight had been lifted and I stopped putting so much pressure on myself.

It is true that you learn from everything that you go through. As much as you learn from your wins, you learn even more from your losses. Taking automotive technology is like learning a foreign language. Like most things that you simply do not know anything about, it is going to be completely new and a challenge. No one knows everything. Everyone started somewhere and also, knew nothing or very little. You cannot be intimidated by the process or by those in the class with experience and already working in the field.

We have to start feeling good about the journey. No matter how difficult. The moment you start recognizing every item under the hood and under the vehicle, that is going to be awesome. The moment you remember everything safety and how to properly handle certain chemicals and products and not be deathly afraid, is a win. The pride you will feel when you know all of your tools and which one to grab and what size and how to use it, that will be beyond amazing. It will not happen overnight but you will get there, as will I. We got this.